The world through my American eyes

Friday was Nathalies moving day and it went real smooth. The only things that made it a bit more interesting then anticipated was a wrong turn in the parking lot with a truck that was a foot higher then McDonalds Drive-through. Some backing and turning solved the problem without tearing the roof off though. The other thing was a 30 something mile (american miles) detour to fetch a key. But all together it all went well.

Saturday, Sunday and Monday I did as little as possible due to the cold.

Vincent spent almost the entire easter with us and besides my cold we had a wonderful time and we learned lots of new things. For instance, the clouds follow the car in the side mirrors.

The cold is a bit better but have moved to my chest so breathing is a bit hard. But I will go to the doctor if it doesn't get better aunties, don't worry.

Love J

Anyway, the topic here is what if...

I feel a bit torn between emotions right now you see, I have my wonderful fiancé here and my adorable children and grandson (we shall now call him Jafar for the time being). They all represent the present and I would truely die without them. They are my very reason to get out of bed every morning. On the other hand I have my loving family in America who represent a past I never really experienced. An alternate past you might say and I love them and miss them so terribly.

So you see, my emotions are going back and forth all the time between the past and the present. A part of me wishes I had never left while another, the aware and sensible part of me realizes that if I hadn't I would probably never have become who I am today with the loving people who surround me over here.

Still, if things had been any different I probably would have packed my bags and left this place to be with my "other family". Not that I wish that things really where different, I love the people around me too much. I just wish there was a way to do both.

Love you all